I never have really spent much time in a hospital until all this started. I mean I've been HIV poz since 1992 without much hoopla, no related illness, pretty healthy overall. Well healthy is a relative term I guess, I used my body like a type of amusement park ride, and I had a free pass to ride on it over, and over, and over. Being a bartender, a really good one, every night was a party, drinking, drugs, sex, usually in that exact order. Yea, I was a living cliche' and I had my free pass, there was no stopping, why would I want to.